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‘You’ Only Live Once: Hildur Knútsdóttir’s The Night Guest (Part 6)
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‘You’ Only Live Once: Hildur Knútsdóttir’s The Night Guest (Part 6)
Sibling rivalry can be hell…
By Ruthanna Emrys, Anne M. Pillsworth
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Published on July 9, 2025
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Welcome back to Reading the Weird, in which we get girl cooties all over weird fiction, cosmic horror, and Lovecraftiana—from its historical roots through its most recent branches. This week, we’re reading Chapters 36-46 of Hildur Knútsdóttir’s The Night Guest. The English version, translated by Mary Robinette Kowal, was first published in 2024; the original was published in 2021. Spoilers ahead!
Hakon, the psychologist Iðunn finally visits, can’t prescribe sleeping pills. He talks about psychosis. He wants her to go to the psychiatric ward—she can get the pills there. Iðunn is tempted to let doctors take responsibility for her, and for the other. She’s scared, though, of what the other will do to punish her. Could she get a straitjacket, she asks hopefully.
Hakon, looking sad, doesn’t answer. He repeats that she should go to the hospital, immediately. He’ll call her a cab. Iðunn says she’ll think about it, but instead she goes home.
* * *
She stops locking her door at night. She wakes up exhausted each morning, but at least her fingers are healing. After four nights, she stops bothering to check the tracking map on her watch. She doesn’t always take the same route, but she always goes to the harbor at Grandi.
What is out there?
* * *
Stefan keeps messaging, but Iðunn doesn’t have the energy to come up with a good response. Besides, isn’t ignoring him the better strategy? Her brain has “solidified into a ball of hard glue.”
Hakon calls to check on her. Iðunn says she’s feeling better, sleeping well. She can hear that he doesn’t believe her, but after all, he can’t force her to go. Or call her mom. Right?
He keeps asking if she’s sure she’s okay, as if hoping against his instincts that she’s telling the truth. The simple repetition of the question turns it into a reassuring statement. Iðunn almost feels like she’s getting better, but that feeling doesn’t last long.
The human resources manager calls about her long absence on sick leave. Iðunn senses the woman thinks she has a mental illness of some kind, can’t ask outright. While silence stretches out, she thinks about how socialization has schooled women to “create a cozy atmosphere and ensure that no one is embarrassed about anything.” But she’s too tired to spare the HR manager, who settles for demanding a doctor’s note if she’ll be out longer.
She forces herself to get out of bed and take a much needed shower. She’s got to shake off her “malaise.” Just because someone takes control of her body while she sleeps doesn’t mean she can’t live life, does it?
She calls Mar and invites him to visit.
* * *
She cleans her apartment top to bottom and carefully puts on makeup. At least her black eye has faded; she can’t do anything about her two missing fingernails. For a while she wonders if her girlfriends were right: she just needed to exert herself and socialize. Too bad her problem’s not simple fatigue, but forget that. Tonight she’s going to live, and quite a lot.
Mar arrives bearing burgers, fries and a bottle of good red wine (what a prince!) Like a gentleman, he praises the apartment’s view and inspects the pictures on her walls. Iðunn, on the other hand, is not feeling ladylike. Mar doesn’t protest when she steers him into the bedroom.
The food’s cold when they finally get to it, but the wine is very good. They end up curled together on her sofa, watching a Netflix movie. Her head on Mar’s shoulder, Iðunn thinks it would be nice to always live such a life.
* * *
She wakes up in her bed, not remembering how she got there from the couch. She must have fallen asleep, which makes her heart race with apprehension. Mar lies beside her, back turned, seemingly asleep, but what if she killed him? No, not Iðunn, the other she.
Then Mar rolls over and looks at her. His green eyes are beautiful. He smiles and draws her into his arms. He thanks her for last night. For the second time they made love. She was “absolutely amazing.” As Mar tightens his embrace, Iðunn clenches her fists.
* * *
A morning comes when she wakes up with seaweed in her hair and black sand between her toes. She doesn’t want to know what’s out there at Grandi.
* * *
She wakes up with blood on her right knee, clotted and brown and not her own. She needs to know what’s out on Grandi.
* * *
Iðunn loads the GPS coordinates onto her computer and overlays all her night trips on one map. Red lines mark all the different routes to Grandi. She always walks the same way to Orfirisey Island, then branches out in seemingly random directions. After layering her routes a second time, she sees it: “The point where all the lines overlap.”
The Degenerate Dutch: Iðunn ponders how women are socialized to fill uncomfortable gaps, to laugh at offensive jokes and ignore sexual harassment rather than make trouble. But she’s too tired to play the role.
Madness Takes Its Toll: Hákon would like Iðunn to go to a psychiatric ward, but won’t force her. On the other hand, he’s not going to just give her sleeping pills. Her desperation for a thing that’s already failed is understandable, but telling. Denial may be all the treatment that’s easily accessible.
Anne’s Commentary
In these chapters, Iðunn gets lots of calls from Real Life, warning that her nightly “guest” is getting the upper hand in their contest for control of one poor single body. Psychologist Hakon wants her to check into a psychiatric ward. Her HR manager calls about her lengthening absence and dwindling sick leave days. Preoccupation with the “guest” and exhaustion from her nocturnal rambles are leaving her unable to squash her ex-and-already-married boyfriend. Hakan throws her another lifeline via a follow-up call, but she insists she’s getting better until he (admittedly too eager to believe her) stops pushing hospitalization.
Iðunn, the “good” sister, has begun to question the social rules for women as she understands them. Basically, that women are responsible for making human interactions run smoothly. Her definition of “smoothly” is keeping things “cozy” and ensuring “that no one is embarrassed about anything.” “Imperfections” must be glossed over, down to overlong silences on a phone line and up to politely ignoring routine sexual harassment. Think of others first. Thinking of oneself first, as in breaking up with Stefan, only gets one called a “bitch.”
How embarrassing.
You can bet that the “bad” sister, Ingunn, never cared about being embarrassed or causing embarrassment. Iðunn tells herself she’s just too tired to play the cozy-nice game, but maybe she’s adapting to her guest by adopting some of the other’s attitudes. Would the old Iðunn have concluded that losing control to someone “(or something)” else when she sleeps is shrug-offable, or that she should just go ahead and “live life” in a big way?
Inviting a man over and immediately wrestling him into bed is the sort of sexual adventure big sister Ingunn used to brag about. It’s the sort of boldness Iðunn wondered if she could ever emulate. Suddenly she can. She does, and success! Her prey puts up no fight at all.
Afterward, Mar’s very good wine renders tolerable their delayed meal of now-cold burgers and now-soggy fries. Iðunn’s afterglow is deepened by the impact of a fast-downed first glass, and she doesn’t seem to notice how their conversation about the weather and news soon peters into Mar’s suggestion that they watch a movie on Netflix. He cares enough about one particular foreign flick to call the friend who recommended it, which leaves Iðunn waiting alone on the sofa. When he joins her, he puts his arm not around her but along the sofa back. Iðunn rests her head on his shoulder and thinks how cozy this evening is. How nice, to live such a life.
How, kinda, like the evening of a long-settled couple. Fine if the people involved are a long-settled couple. Iðunn and Mar are only on their second date. Still, Mar is a prince. And a gentleman. Maybe he paired the rather special wine he brought with a very casual meal just in case Iðunn didn’t have lust in mind but a hang-out session. A prince and a gentleman, like a well-socialized woman, doesn’t want anyone to be embarrassed.
He may have escaped embarrassment by being able to cater to Iðunn’s shifts from tigress to domestic tabby, but might he not have been confused? Even a little let-down? Never mind. The tabby falls asleep to wake up double the tigress who greeted him earlier, if I’m parsing his next-morning ardor and remarks correctly. Iðunn has just been shudderingly thankful that her guest didn’t kill Mar as he slept. She has just been near tears that she can’t in fact “live life” without factoring in the possibility someone else is living life in her captive body a good chunk of the time. Now Mar is treasuring her up like the perfect lover, only to unknowingly crush Iðunn by thanking her specifically for the second time they hit the sheets, when she was “absolutely amazing.”
So what was she the first time, when she was actually herself? Not “absolutely amazing,” obviously. “Absolutely amazing” belonged to the other.
To Ingunn, as it always had.
Sibling rivalry can be hell. Especially when one of the siblings may be coming from hell to take over the job the other sibling can never manage.
Iðunn can never replace Ingunn. Only Ingunn can be Ingunn, whoever’s body she has to wear.
By the way, I love the staccato poetry of the four tiny chapters that follow Ingunn’s second date with Mar. “I wake up with seaweed in my hair and black sand between my toes” is my favorite sentence in the book so far. Could the night guest be taking Iðunn’s body to some esoteric spa down on the Grandi waterfront? Sea weed is a great hair conditioner, black sand super for exfoliating rough foot skin.
Somehow, I think the seaweed and sand got there another way.
Ruthanna’s Commentary
“Where did I go?” was tricky enough as a question. “What’s there?”—a.k.a. “Why did I go there?” promises to be more dangerous yet. The Guest isn’t just wandering the bad area of town, but doing something very specific. Something for which the oceanfront location matters badly.
And as we all know, nautical locations have endless disturbing implications.
We still don’t know how Ingunn died. Could she, a la last week’s selection, have drowned? Given her risk-taking tendencies, perhaps she was involved in some sort of smuggling operation—maybe she’s finally showing up in Iðunn’s life (and body) now because it took a while to crawl out of the seabed muck. Or maybe she’s posthumously making nefarious deals with water women and Deep Ones and McGuire-ish mermaids.
But we definitely don’t want to think about those possibilities. Iðunn sure doesn’t. The belated psychologist offers inpatient treatment, but no guarantee of a straightjacket, and there are only so many fingernails she’s okay with losing—so exhaustion and nightly possession it is, and during the day she’ll just cope with being too exhausted to work, and perhaps appreciate being too exhausted to think. Or maybe she’ll distract herself with Mar—except that the combination of distracting “prince” and exhaustion mean that Netflix and Chill too easily becomes Netflix and Nap. And then Mar gets an unmarked, but apparently delightful, reunion. So much for distraction.
The remaining chapters, short and stressed, demonstrate that failure of distraction. Seaweed, black sand, and someone else’s blood, all suggest that ignorance is not bliss. It’s not even sustainable. So back to the GPS records we go, and finding that all the lines converge on—what? A sacrificial altar, conveniently marked on Google Maps?
Iðunn and Ingunn still feel like mirror universe opposites—I can’t help but recall the original Star Trek episode where Kirk gets Jekyll-Hyded by the transporter, divided into an evil version and a good-but-indecisive version. (It’s “The Enemy Within,” I haven’t forgotten my first fandom.) It’s the energy and determination of the evil side, along with the moral compass of the good side, that makes him an effective captain, and he must reclaim and re-merge both sides.
Iðunn and Ingunn do legitimately appear to have been real and separate human beings during their childhoods, and yet. Iðunn defines herself as the one who never hits back, the one who doesn’t make trouble. Ingunn has the animal magnetism and the determination, along with the willingness to break nails off their shared body when thwarted. (Owwwww!) Transporter accident, mundane schismogenesis, or something deeper?
No answers this week, but perhaps they’re to be found at that point where all the lines converge. In Grandi, where sooner or later even Iðunn must venture.
Next week, join us for another trip into the restricted library stacks with Ben Peek’s “Edgar Addison, the Author of Dévorer (1862-1933)”.[end-mark]
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